Someone used to say, "When you have a rainbow in your heart, your smile will shine bright."

"U look nice."
"I always do."
"Maybe you always will to me...regardless of whether you're fat or not."
"Aww...that's the only nice thing you've said to me EVER. You've mellowed!!"
"And I hate myself for that."
"Don't be. I would mellow down as well when I'm turning 29. It's the age."
"Haha...fuck you!"
"Fuck yourself, meh!"

We were always happy, always, I remember...

"What is your greatest fear?"

"That people would see me as I see them."

ARTHUR RIMBAUD.

The depiction of a forlorn journey of a young disturbed soul through the heartbreaking world; the great French poet who is the cause of my much invisible tears for everytime I read his translated work. I wish I have French blood in me instead so I can be absorbed in his unadulterated brilliance in all its originality.

I have much love and respect for Leonardo Dicaprio; he might just be the greatest actor of all time in my eyes. Him in What's Eating Gilbert Grape was striking, but him as my favourite poet -the great Rimbaud in 1995's Total Eclipse was phenomenal it left me astounded.

Having read Rimbaud for a few years now, I had a hard time battling the mellow part of me from taking over throughout the movie wherein every single line and action was based on Rimbaud's and Paul Verlaine's letters to each other. However alas, efforts were misjudged and strengths were overestimated.

I silently wept, unsure whether it was a sign of disapproval for Rimbaud's homosexual relationship with his mentor, Verlaine or understanding the torture of a restless soul losing hope in the world and human affection.

"I've found it."
"What?"
"Eternity. Where the sun mingled with the sea..."